A World Class Procrastinator

It is three thirty in the morning, I am lying down on my bed, with my eyes heavy wanting to sleep yet I can’t sleep. Thoughts are going through my head, all sorts of thoughts. Then I started thinking about this behavior that I have adopted two years ago if I recall. It is call procrastinating or getting things done at the last minute. I mean I’ve always thought about how it has affected me but not to this extent. To the point of keeping me up in the middle of the night writing about it. this must be a sign of how serious it is getting I told myself.

In the past two years this behavior has affected my life, I mean in every way. I always find myself doing things at the last second. So as this thought ran through my mind, I started asking myself questions. Why can’t I just do things in advance at least a day ahead? I have tried God knows I have, but it never seem to work. I feel like this behavior has taken control over my life. I can’t finish going over a list of things I have put off and waited to the last second to get done, the list is just too long. However I can tell worse cases of procrastination that I’ve done, and believe me I’ve bear the consequences, and the worse kind of consequences.

There was a time when I needed to do an oil change on my car, as you can guess I never got it done on time I kept putting it off and hoping I can drive it today then tomorrow I will take it for the oil change. However, tomorrow never came, and guess what? I kept driving until it ran out of oil, then the engine ended up getting damaged as a result. This is just one example but there are many and even worst. Not to be harsh or anything like that but my mother always tells me “ if there were a dead line to heaven you would never make it on time…… lol. Seriously that’s how bad it got.

Most people that know me, people such as family members and close friends know that I like to put things off for the last minute, therefore insist and make it very clear and how important it is to do something they need me to do on time. Sometimes I feel like a child when they treat me this way, then again I can’t blame them I tell myself blame it on your hideous behavior procrastination of course. When I talk to people about this behavior, they tell me they also procrastinate a lot, but when I tell them my embarrassing stories of procrastination. They just become speechless. For I gave myself a title because I haven’t met anyone with a worst case: A WORLD CLASS PROCRASTINATOR. This is a title I must admit not proud of. If only I can win over this behavior I often find myself thinking.

The point is, I have been inflicted with this behavior and paid so many prices for it. I’ve tried to change for the better and not let PROCASTINATION run my life. I’ve pray about it asking God to take away upon me, I’ve forced myself, fought myself, I’ve even bought books and read them in seeking for solutions to this unbearable behavior. So PLEASE HELP. I am calling out for help, is there anyone out there fighting procrastination, or won it over.